Some mornings I wake up not feeling very close to God. It was one of those mornings earlier this week. I read some Scripture and prayed a bit before hopping in the shower. But as I said goodbye to my wife, I admitted that I didn’t feel much intimacy with Christ. There were no major problems at home or work. My ministry was going well. Jesus was Lord of my life. And yet there was this spiritual dryness that made me long for another drink of the living water of Jesus. How could I sense that closeness to Him once more?

    That morning I wrote in my diary:

I long for that Father/son relationship with You, Lord, where I know You are there for me. Where I weep when reading the story of the cross, knowing that my Savior died for me. But today I feel so dry and distant from You. Please show me the way.

I read of one believer who said that when he struggles he’s learning to run to You, not away from You. I want to do the same. I’m running to You, Jesus, because I desperately need You. Please reveal Yourself to me in a powerful way and give me faith to trust You even when I don’t feel You near me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Our standing before God depends entirely upon His mercy.

    Later in the week I read these encouraging word from Michael Horton about the work of the Holy Spirit: “So much of contemporary spirituality and piety is focused on self. ‘How am I doing spiritually’ ‘How is my walk?’ ‘Am I living in victory?’ Reformation spirituality lifted people out of a purely introspective, inward-looking piety and directed them outside of themselves to Christ and the cross, from which vista they could now look out across the needy world.“ (In the Face of God, Word Publishing, 1996)

    What a great reminder to continually come back to the cross and know that my salvation is not based on my feelings, how much I surrender, or how “spiritual” I may be that day. Our standing before God depends entirely upon His mercy displayed to us through the shed blood of Jesus. As we rest in that forgiveness by faith, the Holy Spirit frees us to love God and love others with vigor and joy. As God promises us in Romans 8:

     Absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.

    Not even a bad mood.

© 2002, Jim Clark, Hope for Life. Used by permission.
Title: "Knowing the Father's Presence"
Author: Jim Clark
Publication Date: April 7, 2002

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